I’m interested in how we can be where we are and who we are right now to make good creative work without doing, willing, and thinking first all the time. These ideas about how to take action imply that creative genius involves mastering life, using it for one’s own individual work, with no outside help (oh, please! That’s not even real). Maybe most harmfully, they teach us to unconsciously look to others for answers and validation: have I done and achieved enough? Do I have permission to do this now, and do I know how to do this project before starting it? Am I good enough? Then we don’t begin the creative process at all—or we begin in fear rather than a genuine place of connection. We stick to what we know, because it seems less dangerous and exhausting somehow. Then the creative impulse or energy goes away—but it’s only because we’ve been taught to play by the wrong rules!
In college while studying critical theory and creativity in literature, I learned about systems like capitalism, patriarchy, and colonization, which gave me a vocabulary to talk about the ways I felt my education and upbringing had made me feel divided within myself. Despite taking many creative writing classes and reading and learning and practicing all I could on my own, my creative expression always felt shaky and easily blocked. It was only by unpacking how those systems that damage so many of us had been internalized and become so pervasive in school and in the workplace—meanwhile learning about the practices of actual artists and writers rather than those prescribed by critics and educators—that I could start retraining myself in how to be creative.
Capitalism, patriarchy, white supremacy—and the sites of education and workplaces where these systems get internalized and replicated in many little ways—are always telling you that you need something else. You’re not enough as you are, you don’t have what it takes yet, you need to work harder and do more, and guess what, you’re already behind. These messages are especially damaging to people of color, women, queer/trans folx, other marginalized groups who aren’t given much privilige or resources to start with and are expected to perform at the same level and not complain about the injustice of that. Which affects our creative work too!
I realized that if I wanted to be a writer like I’d always wanted, I would need to need to get to the deeper roots of creativity and unlearn a lot of what I had internalized that was keeping me stuck. Since 2011, I’ve been gathering research and creative exercises from different disciplines and contexts. I’ve researched ideas in design thinking, improv, astrology, psychology, Buddhist/Indian thought, and theory and literature by people of color and queer writers as well as prolific mainstream writers. Through these ideas, I’ve been learning to recover my creativity and found many of the reasons why we get blocked and different ways of understanding them.
After pursuing my Master’s degree in Comparative Literature at UCLA, where I studied interdisciplinary creativity and taught expository writing, I worked in museum communications, publishing, and user experience design—all of these experiences have helped me understand creativity from different perspectives and using different tools.
I’ve learned that the most radical form of creativity comes from accepting the fullness of your being in the world. There are practices and ideas that can lead to more creatively rich experience right now, if we can just slow down and pay attention differently. That doesn’t mean it’s easy and doesn’t require careful effort and guidance—but it does mean that we have more than we think we have, even if we don’t have a lot. We just have to make space and tap into our wild imaginations.
For me, creative practice is freedom. It restores energy and passion, not the other way around. It’s a place to reclaim your many selves and and see yourself not just as an agent in your life, but also as a collaborator with life. As a “guide from the side”, my mission is to help us recover our sense of imagination and spontaneity, discovering new ways to relate to creative work outside of our cultural conditioning.
MY GUIDING PRINCIPLES
- everyone deserves to live a creative life, however they define creative activities for themselves
- life is an endless quest and state of becoming—it’s important to continually grow as people and expand our sense of what is possible; doing the things that we deeply desire but fear will open doors for us
- imagination and play/improvisation are important areas of our inner lives, and you can learn how to engage them
- if we want a better world, we can’t just focus on what’s wrong, we also have to carve out time to feel centered and restore ourselves through play and joy
- we can use small shifts and quick exercises to get us into a more open, playful frame of mind
- clarity comes from engagement and practice, not just thought
- fear and anxiety (negative experiences) can be tools if we use them wisely
- art-making helps us think through our life situation and respond in more effective ways
- our environments and communities profoundly shape us and what we think is possible
- we are here to help each other leave our communities and planet at least marginally better off than when we got here, and creative effort helps us do that